I found out my grandmother passed away this afternoon (my father’s mother). I started to get emotional earlier but I held it together. I have to be strong for my father now. I also feel as though I shouldn’t be sad, I should be blessed that she had such a fulfilling life of 93 years. I know a lot of people who weren’t fortunate to have their grandparents live long..dying in their 60s and early 70s and to me that’s still pretty young. I don’t know if it’ll sink in anytime soon, the fact that she’s no longer here. I’m usually the type to go on for days fine but then have it all come crashing down in an emotional wreckage. when my other grandmother passed away in 2009 I held it together until I had to console my mother. watching her cry made me cry. I haven’t witnessed my dad cry yet, he’s the strong type, much like myself but I know it will happen. we’ll have a tear fest. I can only imagine how hard it gets as we get older, losing our parents, getting life insurance solicitation in the mail constantly reminding us that “HEY, YOU’RE GETTING OLDER, YOU’RE GONNA DIE, PAY US TO MAKE SURE YOU’RE TAKEN CARE OF WHEN YOU CROKE OVER..” you know..that can’t be easy and that can’t be good on the soul.

Good morning world. It’s Monday, 5:52AM, time to rise with the sun and grind. My weekend, like most weekends, was spent running errands, grocery shopping, cleaning and what have you. I watched the Grammys for a bit and was happy to see Adele up and well after surgery. That woman’s voice is God sent! I ignore any negative comments made about her because those people obviously know nothing about real talent. Adele is the type to give herself in the raw, no gimmicks. She doesn’t parade around stage and wear flashy outfits to try and hide that she has no real talent, SHE IS TALENT! The sad thing is, most of the critic about Adele is on her weight. Her weight does not define her. I hope that she doesn’t let the public and their perception of what is beautiful and acceptable deter her. I’ve noticed she’s lost weight since she first surfaced, but her recent surgery could play a role in that. None the less, I’m not saying she should remain “fat” to prove a point, but that, if she’s losing weight, I’d hope it’s for her own benefit and not to “fit in” with the rest. There’s nothing worse then letting the ideals of other break you down to conformity, because when you do change, the others will say you were better before. That’s just the way people are. If you do things, do them for yourself and not to please others or you’ll end up feeling miserable, like you’re the ball on the ping-pong table of life.